I have been quiet on here, as I have been going through a trying time. I finally found the courage to change my medication that I have been on for my anxiety and depression because it wasn’t working.
And yes I use the word “courage”. Because anyone who has been through anxiety and depression and is being treated with medication knows that not every medication will work for you, you have to find the right one.
It is in that process/transition of finding and trialing new medication , you can experience a whole range of different side effects and it can leave your anxiety and depression go into a free fall spinning out of control. It can be a living hell… a waking nightmare. Something I have personally been experiencing for the last few weeks and even more so after the last few days I have had. And it has been scary.
So yes I use the word “courage”.
COURAGE to speak openly and express my fear, express my feelings and what I have been going through openly
I want to bring to awareness to the rawness the true un polished version of raw fear/anxiety and the consuming black epitome of depression… to be a voice for the ones that suffer alone through a hell that seems never ending… craving for sleep to encompass you to evade the feelings.
I want the world to be aware of the unpolished version of anxiety and depression by ripping the bandaid off what is a more buffered version in main stream society. So it can be seen clearly and openly discussed creating more awareness and support.
I speak from a place of humbleness, because anxiety and depression have no room for the ego.
I speak from a place of experience having lived with this for twenty years.
I speak from a place of compassion and understanding.
And I speak from my soul and from my heart wanting to be a voice, to speak out and to make a change.
With the gaps that I have seen and experienced in the health care system heck in the government system regarding the lack of support and understanding that is given to mental health.
I have seen people fall through those cracks and not survive. Hell I have fallen through the cracks but somehow managed to claw my way out and find the strength to keep going to keep living.
To the strong warriors that have committed suicide, I want to be a voice for you.
I dedicate my writing and my will to make a difference to you. I promise I will not give up and will do my all to make a difference, to bring awareness to create the change needed.
This is my goal this is my mission.
And one day at a time, one step at a time, I hope to achieve that.
The Soul Writer – ✌️
Just to let everyone know during my transition of changing medication for my anxiety and depression I have been monitored safely via my doctor.